When Ethel Mortenson Davis and I created this site while we lived in New Mexico, we did so partially to make sure that we had a creative place to not only showcase some of the poetry and art we have both produced throughout our lifetimes but to also honor our son, Kevin Michael Davis. Kevin had died in Poughkeepsie New York where he was a web designer for Vassar College after a short struggled against aggressive cancer. While we put this blog together, we were both still in the throes of grieving and trying to deal with Kevin’s loss.
Now, Bennison Books, a publisher in Great Britain, has come out with a new anthology, Leaving, an anthology of poetry about dying, grief, and the mystery of absence. The anthology features poems by both Ethel and I as well as some of the finest poets writing anywhere, Cynthia Jobin, John Looker, and A. Carder. As the forward to this magnificent volume says,
Both the grueling reality of dying and its indefinable mystery are revealed in this diverse collection. Grief is tranformative; we are profoundly changed by it. It is also prismatic, imposing new insights, a wider breadth of vision.
I hope you are
in a place
where there is justice,
where there is love
unconditionally,
the end,
where young men
no longer are lynched
by ropes,
or the machinations of killers,
where there is light
and not the suffocating,
ethered mud,
a place where you will
rise above humanness.
I hope you are in a place
called Justice,
a place that will never be named
Georgia.
Maple sugar moon,
golden-eyed
like maple sap
boiling over wood fires.
Finally,
you tell us
of the coming spring—
sweetness that brings
satisfaction,
one more year
to get things right.
Forever is not a word
In our universe,
nothing in it
stays the same.
One day our earth
will become pieces
in the cosmic pond.
We are not forever.
Your movement
in the early morning
through the quiet rooms
will one day drift away.
Forever is not a word
in our universe.
One day we too
will have to part.
Sometimes I want to go to you
but remember that I have
put you in a special room
far from here,
a room, nonetheless,
with an open door,
so that I can enter
anytime.
So, I can see
your smile when you
were running with Shiva,
the golden lab,
through autumn leaves
in a special forest
long ago.
So, I can walk through that door
anytime.
The moon is most beautiful
at her beginning, or end.
Like a fine-edged sickle
punctuating the blackness.
Minimal.
A lot like you.
Not outstanding.
Almost missed.
Nevertheless beautiful.
Step outside with me.
We’ll see her
from the steps.
Let your skin
touch the cold.
At our granddaughter Sophia's wedding, Ethel wrote one poem for the wedding that she read out loud during the ceremony. A friend of our daughter Mary read another poem by Ethel that was written 55 years ago during our courtship. Then, at the reception I sat down and wrote a poem commemorating the event as the mariachi band played and people people danced as sunlight streamed out of the clouds for the first time all day.
The poem Ethel read:Hope
Dear Grandmother,
today your great, great granddaughter
is getting married
to a fine, young man,
and they promise their love
is greater than their parents’ love
and their grandparents’ love.
They promise they will be happier
than their parents were
or their grandparents.
And they promise their children
will be loved more than all
the ancestors put together.
Dear Grandmother,
this is their promise,
and this is our hope.
The poem from 55 years ago:
How Could I Know?
It looks to me as though
you’ve been around, perhaps,
since time began—
and I have lived at least
as long.
Oh? Only that much time?
I’m sure there was no life
before for you or me.
How could I know your face
so well?
As well as some old rock
I’ve seen hang, clinging
to a mountain wall,
and I know what wave of brightness,
or of darkness, to expect there
waiting for me.
You step and make some rounded move.
I know beforehand which way to go.
How could I know? Unless. . .
You’ve been around, perhaps,
since time began.
I know I’ve lived at least as long.
The poem I wrote:At My Granddaughter’s Wedding
First the bald eagle above the bay,
water dancing light on lines of waves,
then cranes in the greening field,
Babies and parents communicating
with legs, moving necks, and wings in the sun,
and then the rumor of storms
brewing black clouds in the north,
stirring with big winds.
But then, after a night of worry,
the ceremony was to be outside,
the wedding day came, cloudy,
a fifty percent chance of rain.
But then the rain didn’t come.
Wedding roses lined paths
to the small wooden church.
Then, the words as ancient
as human spirits, were spoken
by the bride and groom,
and then the sun came out
as the mariachi celebration began,
as clouds thinned,
and my granddaughter and her love danced
as music rose into an evening sky—
and love was everywhere.
Everywhere.
Fannie Lou Hamer
was beaten by a policeman
until he couldn’t beat her any longer,
so he had his partner continue
the beating.
That day, Fannie Lou
left part of her brain
there on the ground,
but she didn’t leave her courage.
She came back for more.
Because she only wanted
her people to be free,
free from fear,
free from beatings,
free from death
just free to enjoy life,
to be wholly human.